The Corners of My Mind (8 of 13)

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      Duncan waited until they heard the door close down the hall
      before confronting the learned doctor.  "Just what happened here?"
      
      "It's hard to say.  He was obviously distressed by the questions,
      even on a subconscious level.  That's very rare, but not unheard of.
      Whatever is upsetting him runs very deep."  She moved to her desk
      and leaned against it, one hand toying idly with the small crystal
      clock.  "He mentioned Tessa.  Has something happened lately that
      might have dredged up memories of her?"
      
      Joe seemed about to speak, but shot a look at MacLeod and held
      his tongue.
      
      It was the Highlander who intoned darkly, "Roszka."
      
      "Roszka?"
      
      "The man who shot Tessa and Richie that night.  Richie ran across
      him a few weeks ago and was considering vigilante justice.  I
      talked to him...he did the right thing."
      
      "And that would be?"
      
      "He let Roszka go."
      
      "Ah.  I see," she murmured, withholding her opinion on that.  "And
      this began shortly after that?  Well. . .it seems we have a catalyst."
      
      "You think that's it?" Joe asked, sitting up straighter in his chair.
      "That's all it would take?"
      
      "Coming face to face with your murderer?  Someone who stole
      your hopes for a 'normal' life...a wife, children -- who took
      away a dear friend in front of your eyes and shattered the only
      home you'd known since you were a child.  Do I think that would
      be enough to cause emotional turmoil, even push him to suicide?
      Yes, I have no doubt that it could.  I can think of very few things
      that would be more traumatic.  The fact that Richie hasn't suffered
      from these episodes before this makes it extremely likely."
      
      "But why sleepwalk? What's he trying to find?"
      
      "We don't know that he's trying to *find* anything.  Maybe he's
      reliving the incident or trying to get away from it. At this point we
      don't even know with absolute certainty that Roszka *is* the cause
      of all this and, until we do, I can't even start to help Richie move
      past it."
      
      Joe shook his head at that.  "You've seen for yourself how
      unwilling he is to talk about it.  I know from experience that he
      closes up tighter than a clam whenever the subject comes up."
      
      "That's true.  He veered away from the subject in our initial
      consultation, as well," Vanya agreed, giving the problem some
      thought. "Hmm.  I think for this next session I should be alone
      with him.  Richie may be more open in front of a clinical observer
      than he is with his friends."  She expected MacLeod to argue the
      point and was surprised when he assented.
      
      "You may be right.  I think Richie follows my lead sometimes and
      keeps things to himself."
      
      "God save me from having two brooding Immortals on my hands,"
      Joe prayed, gazing heavenward.
      
      Duncan scowled in his direction, biting back a scathing retort.
      "Do you think you can get Richie to open up to you?" he asked, his
      attention on Korsikov once more.
      
      "I'll do my very best, but in the meantime he shouldn't be left
      alone.  If he keeps up this crusade to kill himself, sooner or later
      he'll succeed, Immortal or not.  His subconscious has already
      caught on to the fact that taking his head is the solution.  We saw
      where that led him.  Maybe next time he'll seek out another
      Immortal and just stand there...easy Quickening.  There are a great
      many unscrupulous Immortals out there who wouldn't turn that
      down."
      
      "I know," Duncan agreed unhappily, having already considered the
      possibility himself.  He set his jaw with determination.  "Richie
      will stay with me until we figure this out."
      
      "You may have a tough time convincing *him* of that," Joe
      pointed out.
      
      Duncan frowned him down.  "He'll stay with me...even if I have to
      tie him down."
      
      "Let's hope that won't be necessary," Vanya remarked with a wry
      smile.
      
      
      Richie returned from his attempt to compose himself looking little
      better.  He threw the group at large an overly cheerful smile before
      taking a seat on the couch once more and eyeing Vanya
      expectantly.
      
      "Richie, I've spoken to both Duncan and Joe and I think it might be
      best if you and I spoke privately now.  Is that all right with you?"
      
      "We'll stay if you want us to, Rich," Duncan assured him.
      
      The young Immortal opened his mouth and closed it again, casting
      a quick glance at both of his friends before responding.  Their
      concern was touching, but somewhere at the back of his mind
      came the nagging reminder that he was unworthy of it.  "No, I'll be
      fine.  You guys can head home if you want.  I'll get a cab when
      we're done here."
      
      It was amazing how quickly concern could morph into displeasure.
      
      "Joe and I will be in the lobby, Richie," the Scot informed him, his
      scowl mirrored by the Watcher at his side.
      
      "That's right, son," Joe expounded.  "We told you, we're not going
      anywhere.  Try to get that through that thick head of yours."  He
      playfully whapped Richie's head for emphasis, drawing a grudging
      laugh from the young Immortal.
      
      "I'll try, Joe."
      
      The mortal grunted his approval and turned toward the door,
      Duncan at his elbow should his support be needed.
      
      "Hey!" Richie called as they reached the doorway.  He waited for
      the pair to turn back toward him before giving a heartfelt,
      "Thanks."
      
      Joe thumped his cane on the floor in response and stepped out into
      the hall.  Duncan remained in the doorway, gaze locked on his
      protege for a full minute before Vanya's subtle throat-clearing
      brought him out of his fog.  He smiled ruefully, hand on the
      doorknob.  "Take your time," he told her, waiting for her nod
      before stepping out and pulling the door to behind him.
      
      "Alone at last," Richie quipped, laughing uneasily.
      
      "And I thought you loved me for my mind," she tsked, shaking her
      head at him and smiling as he laughed again, the sound more
      natural this time.  "So, what do you think we learned today?" she
      asked, taking the seat across from him.
      
      "That I've got a mean left," he joked, indicating the Lalique crystal
      bowl which sat upon the coffee table once again.
      
      "Mmm," she murmured, seeing his attempt at evasion for what it
      was. "Shall we begin?"
      
      The rest of the session wound up being a lesson in futility.  Richie
      seemed disinclined to discuss anything even remotely personal,
      and resisted all her attempts to draw him out.  If she hadn't been so
      patient she might have boxed his ears, a child-rearing technique
      she had learned from the woman she'd once thought her mother.
      Still, he was no child, contrary to how she might perceive him.  He
      was an adult, an adult who had endured more than his share of
      heartbreak in his twenty-one short years and, right now, she was all
      that stood between him and a possible mental breakdown...or an
      untimely death.  No, that wasn't quite true.  He had friends, at least
      two that she knew of, who - if she was any judge of character -
      would go to the brink with him.  To find devotion like that was a
      rare thing, even for Immortals hundreds of years old.  It was oddly
      comforting to know he had already engendered this kind of loyalty
      in mortal and Immortal alike.  Maybe because she had searched so
      long in her life before she found its like.
      
      This was one battle she...*they* would not lose.
      
      ~~~~~~~~~
      
      Another session, another dead end.  Oh, Richie would speak freely
      enough of his recent past, but any attempt to draw him out on
      anything that came before was met with stoic, uninformative
      one-liners.  While this in itself was an indication of suppressed
      feelings and possible danger areas, that knowledge didn't move
      Vanya any closer to determining the cause of the problem.  She
      realized she needed a hook, something that would set the mood
      and allow her to segue into areas of concern.  That she wasn't
      likely to get that hook from Richie was becoming more and more
      apparent.
      
      After much introspection, she decided to turn to Duncan, knowing
      she would have to take care not to breach the therapist-patient
      relationship in the process.  She received her chance after the
      completion of the following day's session.
      
      With it pouring, yet again, Richie had volunteered to pull the car
      around to the door, saving Joe - who had insisted on accompanying
      them as often as business would allow - a good soaking.  The
      redhead's mad dash to the parking lot gave Vanya the opening she
      needed to speak with the Scot and, surprisingly, it was Duncan
      who unknowingly opened the door for her request.
      
      "You're not getting very far with him, are you?  I know how
      stubborn Richie can be.  Maybe if I talked to him--"
      
      "Thank you, Duncan, but he might take umbrage at that.  I do have
      a request, if it wouldn't be too much trouble.  Do you have a photo
      of Tessa?  It might help me if I could picture her more clearly," she
      continued, before he could question her.  "From the little I've
      gotten out of Richie, I would think the woman was just short of
      being a saint."
      
      Duncan laughed easily at that.  "She was no saint, but it's easy to
      forget her little foibles; she was a special lady," he said, sobering
      visibly.  "Yes, sure, I have dozens of pictures of her.  I'll go
      through them tonight."
      
      Vanya took his right hand and gave it a firm squeeze.  "Thank you.
      It could help immeasurably."
      
      "I hope so," Joe added, having heard at least part of their
      conversation.  "Richie's been trying to convince himself that he's
      not having any more trouble sleeping."
      
      "Is that true?" Vanya returned, startled.  If so, it would be the first
      she'd heard of it.
      
      Joe snorted, glancing sideways at the Highlander.
      
      "No, it's not," Duncan answered for him.  "He's still sleepwalking,
      but I've caught up to him before he's managed to hurt himself.  I've
      been able to coax him back to the couch without waking him, but
      he knows it's still happening; I've been very upfront with him about
      it."
      
      "Denial," Vanya stated, nodding.  "It's quite common, but I had
      hoped we'd moved past that.  Funny, he hasn't attempted to
      convince me that he's on the road to improvement," she mused
      aloud.
      
      "Maybe because he figures you'd be able to see through him.  Hell,
      a blind man could see those dark circles under his eyes.  He may
      be getting more sleep than he did when he was on his own, but it's
      not enough for someone who insists on being on the go all the
      time.  I've threatened to sit on him if he didn't settle down, and I
      know MacLeod has had to put a tight rein on him for his own
      good."
      
      "I'm surprised he hasn't rebelled."  Vanya had to fight a smile at the
      thought of the two older men chasing after the younger.
      
      "He throws me dark looks and mutters a lot," Duncan informed
      her, with a wry smile of his own, "but he hasn't pushed it.  Richie's
      not a fool, he knows we're just looking out for him.  He may not
      like it, but he accepts it."
      
      The sound of a horn honking brought the conversation to an abrupt
      close.
      
      "That's him now.  Later, doc."  The Watcher turned away with a
      wave.
      
      "Bye, Joe."  She faced Duncan once more.  "You will remember
      the photo?"
      
      "I'll find one tonight," he promised.  "Same time tomorrow?"
      
      "I'll be here."
      
      Duncan turned up the collar of his trenchcoat and followed Joe out
      into the deluge, letting the door swing shut behind him with a
      muffled whoosh.
      
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